I make love to myself in my dreams

“Are we going to do this?”

I make love to myself in my dreams. 

My lovemaking dreams recur every few months, evolving in form over the years. The dreams were initially characterized by guilt and disgust. 

I distinctly remember one dream from two years ago: 

I was in a small bathroom at a college party, passionately making out with a new guy I met. When I pulled away to look at him, …